LOVE UNCONDITIONAL
My God Is An AWESOME God!
Standing holding our week old bundle of joy tightly, I lent over awkwardly to rescue my 20mth old daughter's toy she had unceremoniously thrown into the raised fish pond in our back yard!
With my arm in slimy fish water up to my elbow and Ezra crying her poor little broken heart out because her favorite toy was on it's way to becoming a permanent home for the goldfish I suddenly heard a 'PLOP' followed by a splash of water!
I instantly realized that what had once been my cell phone in perfectly good working order was now also awaiting it's watery grave at the bottom of the fish pond!
Suddenly I was flooded with pure unadulterated sympathy for my beautiful little girl who had stopped crying and was peering into the pond in curious wonder at why Mummy's phone was now sitting at the bottom of the pond with her toy!
I quickly rescued both the toy and my phone,grabbed Ezra who by now was happy to have her precious toy in hand seemingly completely unaware of the water running out of the bottom, and rushed inside to try and raise my phone from the dead!
Despite my very best efforts of CPR (Careful Phone Resuscitation) I was unsuccessful and as I was unable to use it at all I gave it to my children to play with and it spent the next two and a half years happily sitting in the toy-box being used and thrown around at the whim of my children!
Then on the 17th of May 2008 my world crashed around me and the love of my life who had been my best friend since I was 7yrs old and I had been married to for nearly ten years died!
Words can't even begin to sufficiently describe the devastation that I felt and I was left in a haze of indescribable pain and agony!
One day three months later my seven year old son Isaiah came up to me extremely excited,
"Mummy Mummy my phones working"!
Glancing quickly at the phone he was holding up to my face as he danced with excitement I replied,
"Don't be silly Isaiah that's your toy phone, it hasn't worked for nearly three years"
"But Mummy", he insisted, "It IS working LOOK"!
I answered him somewhat shortly and without looking up from the weeds I was pulling out of the garden,
"It hasn't had a battery charger near it for over two and a half years Isaiah, there is absolutely no way it is working now please go and play"!
"But Mummy it IS working" He replied this time slightly despondent.
Hearing the disappointment in his voice that I wasn't willing to look at the phone I stopped what I was doing and gave him my full attention.
Seeing he had finally got my attention he brightened and handed me the phone to inspect.
To my shock and surprise the screen was on and as I stood staring at the screen in complete disbelief at what I was seeing Isaiah gloated,
"See....I told you it was working"!
As I stood there, phone in hand staring at the screen wondering how on earth this was possible I suddenly thought out-loud,
"There HAS to be a reason why this is happening God, what is it"?
Then I suddenly thought of the in-box, maybe there is something in there that God wants me to know or see!
Filled with apprehensive excitement I went to the in-box and what I found was the last thing I ever expected and as I looked at who they were from I was unable to control the tears that instantly welled up and overflowed, from streaming down my cheeks!
There were only three texts but they were all from Dion, my beautiful husband who had gone to be with the Lord three months earlier!
As I clicked on the first message I tried to keep myself in check by reminding myself that Dion sent me hundreds of texts, a lot just being trivial day to day things that all families text each other about everyday things to do with the life we lead, but as it opened up onto the screen in front of me my heart jumped into my mouth as I read,
"I really luv u sooo much!!! ur 1 of a-kind!God put a lot of work in2 making u & he made me proud as well as himself"
As I read the text again I felt that my shattered heart would turn to dust yet at the same time to hear that Dion loved and adored me that much at a time when I was so desperate to hear him tell me he loved me was beyond words!
I opened the next two texts ,my heart feeling as if it was about to pound right out of my chest and this is what they said,
"Yeah Babe,thats cool.Nite, luv u. i liv 4 u & the kids."
"Hey babe, u know what? I really do luv u sooo much!! U mean everything 2 me!
A week later the phone stopped working and hasn't gone again since!
There are a lot of you out there who are going through so much pain and agony that it feels as if you can't go on for another moment and if you are one of these people then please take heart, God promises in His word (the Bible) that He will not leave you nor forsake you and even if you believe that miracles are not for today I am living proof that God keeps His promise and that He performs miracles today just as He did when the Bible was written!
My God does NOT play favourites (it says it right there in His Word) so what He has done for me He WILL do for you!! It doesn't matter who you are or what your background is God will be there for you, walking hand in hand with you through your grief and pain even if the place you are in is so dark that you cant see where to place your foot and you feel that God has abandoned you, He HASN'T He just needs you to be a bit patient as He works out the details of your rescue!
God love and adores you as much as He does me because you see,
My God is a God of UNCONDITIONAL LOVE!
NOTE: I have written out the texts from Dion EXACTLY as they were written on the phone!!
Standing holding our week old bundle of joy tightly, I lent over awkwardly to rescue my 20mth old daughter's toy she had unceremoniously thrown into the raised fish pond in our back yard!
With my arm in slimy fish water up to my elbow and Ezra crying her poor little broken heart out because her favorite toy was on it's way to becoming a permanent home for the goldfish I suddenly heard a 'PLOP' followed by a splash of water!
I instantly realized that what had once been my cell phone in perfectly good working order was now also awaiting it's watery grave at the bottom of the fish pond!
Suddenly I was flooded with pure unadulterated sympathy for my beautiful little girl who had stopped crying and was peering into the pond in curious wonder at why Mummy's phone was now sitting at the bottom of the pond with her toy!
I quickly rescued both the toy and my phone,grabbed Ezra who by now was happy to have her precious toy in hand seemingly completely unaware of the water running out of the bottom, and rushed inside to try and raise my phone from the dead!
Despite my very best efforts of CPR (Careful Phone Resuscitation) I was unsuccessful and as I was unable to use it at all I gave it to my children to play with and it spent the next two and a half years happily sitting in the toy-box being used and thrown around at the whim of my children!
Then on the 17th of May 2008 my world crashed around me and the love of my life who had been my best friend since I was 7yrs old and I had been married to for nearly ten years died!
Words can't even begin to sufficiently describe the devastation that I felt and I was left in a haze of indescribable pain and agony!
One day three months later my seven year old son Isaiah came up to me extremely excited,
"Mummy Mummy my phones working"!
Glancing quickly at the phone he was holding up to my face as he danced with excitement I replied,
"Don't be silly Isaiah that's your toy phone, it hasn't worked for nearly three years"
"But Mummy", he insisted, "It IS working LOOK"!
I answered him somewhat shortly and without looking up from the weeds I was pulling out of the garden,
"It hasn't had a battery charger near it for over two and a half years Isaiah, there is absolutely no way it is working now please go and play"!
"But Mummy it IS working" He replied this time slightly despondent.
Hearing the disappointment in his voice that I wasn't willing to look at the phone I stopped what I was doing and gave him my full attention.
Seeing he had finally got my attention he brightened and handed me the phone to inspect.
To my shock and surprise the screen was on and as I stood staring at the screen in complete disbelief at what I was seeing Isaiah gloated,
"See....I told you it was working"!
As I stood there, phone in hand staring at the screen wondering how on earth this was possible I suddenly thought out-loud,
"There HAS to be a reason why this is happening God, what is it"?
Then I suddenly thought of the in-box, maybe there is something in there that God wants me to know or see!
Filled with apprehensive excitement I went to the in-box and what I found was the last thing I ever expected and as I looked at who they were from I was unable to control the tears that instantly welled up and overflowed, from streaming down my cheeks!
There were only three texts but they were all from Dion, my beautiful husband who had gone to be with the Lord three months earlier!
As I clicked on the first message I tried to keep myself in check by reminding myself that Dion sent me hundreds of texts, a lot just being trivial day to day things that all families text each other about everyday things to do with the life we lead, but as it opened up onto the screen in front of me my heart jumped into my mouth as I read,
"I really luv u sooo much!!! ur 1 of a-kind!God put a lot of work in2 making u & he made me proud as well as himself"
As I read the text again I felt that my shattered heart would turn to dust yet at the same time to hear that Dion loved and adored me that much at a time when I was so desperate to hear him tell me he loved me was beyond words!
I opened the next two texts ,my heart feeling as if it was about to pound right out of my chest and this is what they said,
"Yeah Babe,thats cool.Nite, luv u. i liv 4 u & the kids."
"Hey babe, u know what? I really do luv u sooo much!! U mean everything 2 me!
A week later the phone stopped working and hasn't gone again since!
There are a lot of you out there who are going through so much pain and agony that it feels as if you can't go on for another moment and if you are one of these people then please take heart, God promises in His word (the Bible) that He will not leave you nor forsake you and even if you believe that miracles are not for today I am living proof that God keeps His promise and that He performs miracles today just as He did when the Bible was written!
My God does NOT play favourites (it says it right there in His Word) so what He has done for me He WILL do for you!! It doesn't matter who you are or what your background is God will be there for you, walking hand in hand with you through your grief and pain even if the place you are in is so dark that you cant see where to place your foot and you feel that God has abandoned you, He HASN'T He just needs you to be a bit patient as He works out the details of your rescue!
God love and adores you as much as He does me because you see,
My God is a God of UNCONDITIONAL LOVE!
NOTE: I have written out the texts from Dion EXACTLY as they were written on the phone!!